the new chapter

I become what I've not expect before.
Indeed it is good.
Something good is happening.
I'm happy. That's it.



And I hope, I will happy.

Keeping my blog's background as white, don't wanna change the new templates provided by blogspot!


Another month arrive, and I'm still wondering why.
If I have a goal, I'll die for it.
Till now, I'm always know what I don't want, but still not really know what really do I want?
A beautiful question mark plotted, a ___________ blank yet to be filled in.
But I believe soon, very soon, I'm gonna get my way.
Grab the steering wheel, and turn to the way I want.
Get the remote control, switch to the channel I want.


What do I want? What do I need?
and the answer now that only can be provided is UNKNOWN


However,
at least I figure out what do I do not want/do.

Woodstock by Matthews Southern Comfort

No border

One day, everybody woke up and find their way out of here.
Only me, and me only still couldn't find the way out.
Sometimes I feel that we are the rubbish that being thrown in a huge tunnel.
Indeed we are human being.
Everyone starts to think what to do, rather than just waiting the time of death.
Being angel or demon is not your own choice, perhaps it is fixed.
You are a robot that were set to be an angel or a demon.
However, sometimes or most of the time, you may change it.
Change is your right, your power.


After that, some people managed to get out from the dump.
He climbs; She cries; They run.
I'm not greedy, I'll walk.


In the end, people cry and laugh.
In the end, people woke up.
In the end, I'll wake up and walk out of this dump.
And I hope I won't miss this dump anymore and will walk in a best posture to a best place, for me.

The end is another beginning

I've tried.
I'm tired.

I knew I'll be good.
I just know.

I hope to be like somebody, the kind of people who know what they want.
I just don't want to runaway.
I'm not a coward, of course.
Maybe just like a sheep, lost in a big road.

I can choose, I know.
Well, I don't know what to choose.
Once I've made the decision, no matter what, I know I can get it.
My life is always lucky.
I knew.

Just like what wrote in the "Secret" book.
Actually I've experienced it.
I don't know how other people's thinking.
Perhaps they are many people just like me.
We are lost.

Some said if a person still don't know what he or she wants after 18, it is the failure of education.
Indeed, and it's my failure.
I've set the "short goal".
Last time I just want to enter university.
That time, my results in school are in the middle standard.
I'm always in the middle, neither the best or the worst, I mean results.
Hence, I'm very appreciate what I've got till now.
Now, the end of university's life almost come.
And I'm totally lost in the pathway.
I always know what I don't want, but don't know what I want actually.

The worst thing is time is forcing me to think.
Yes, think, think and always thinking.
Emmm, hope got a decision, as soon as possible.

I'm thinking of seek help from others.
Unfortunately, I think nobody can help even they wish to.

Challenge

Lie to me, You said, I'm good enough, nothing should be added. If added, burden exist.
Honest speaks. You said, I'm really a bad guy. I should change.


Indeed, change is the most challenging task now.


It's seems like playing hide and seek between 2 personalities inside me.
I want the whole picture, not just a piece of a jigsaw puzzle.


When?
When is the day that I can see the whole picture?


If the truth of angel is hypocrite
&
If the truth of demon is honesty

Would you like be my angel or my demon?

Short notes

1. Although still in CNY mood, other things should be given priorities instead of relaxing too much.
2. The end still far away from me, I still can chase what I want.
3. I'm still young, indeed. I believe I can fly, one day.
4. Yes, I'm better than yesterday.
5. Wake up in the morning is not so difficult, but after wake up doing something really meaningful is an option.
6. I fight, I don't want run away.
7. I'm not coward, I have to, I must BRAVE.
8. I know, what I don't know will be figure out soon.
9. I'm lost, but I know I will find my way.
10. I'll find my way, the real my way.

laptop don't die

Recently always got weird experience about my laptop.
I know it already 4 years old, but i hope it can survive until I graduate.
The problem today is:
The speaker of laptop no sound, but got sound when listen through earphone.

I plan to call DELL customer service at first, but my handphone left not much credit.
I tried to go setting in control panel, nothing special, all normal.
I tried to do system restore still useless.
Ok, I google.

This is what i got:
HP laptop speaker no sound: but can hear through headset

...The headphone input jack is stuck, there is a small switch inside the jack which shuts off the speakers when headphones are plugged in. When the headphones are pulled out, the speakers turn on again.....

...Rather than bringing my computer to get fixed, I just took a pair of headphones and inserted them into the jack repeatedly, at different speeds. Mostly what worked was putting it in and pulling it out rather quickly. have a song playing looped while you do it so that you can tell if it worked or not. It will take some time and patience...
 

Although my laptop is not HP brand, but it is useful!

English

Erm, I should write more in English.
Actually I tried to read English news everyday but the internet connection in my room is not really stable.
I have to and I must improve my English writing skill.
If just conversation, I'm ok when speaking in English and I can communicate even with foreigner in English.
However, when I need to write in English I found that I can't write well.
I took more than 10 minutes just now when trying to email a professor (actually only one paragraph!)
Ahhh...
I really have to work harder...

Introducing The Annoying Orange!

The Annoying Orange is good to release stress.
I like it so much!
hehahahahahahahahahhahahahaha...

How could an orange become so annoying and yet so famous now?

Let me introduce THE ANNOYING ORANGE!
This orange is indeed annoying but i like it so much! Especially it's laughing voice... hehahahahahaha
It's funny!
Till now got 4 episodes

Episode 1: When the annoying orange met an apple

[Hey apple hey apple apple hey... ]
I put this subtitle version, got chinese translation:

Episode 2: Plumpkin... the annoying orange insists that pumpkin is his brother...
[you are the biggest orange i've ever seen!]

Episode 3: "toe-may-toe"... I think the annoying orange is missing the apple...
[you are red, so you're an apple...]

Episode 4: Sandy Claus
[are you a fruit or a vegetable?]

What a coincidence, a junior gave me a red apple tonight!

hey apple hey apple apple hey!

Running

Back from a short vacation in Singapore. Feel great and tired too. My body is not as young as my age, perhaps. Felt quite easy tired in this vacation. Although we walk much than usual, still shouldn't be as tired as now. I think is time to make some excercise to make my body stronger.


I'm enjoying this trip and having a rest and free from those works. Countdown in Singapore is better than countdown in Sungai Wang 4 years ago. It is indeed crowded but at least all of us are able to move freely. Unlike Sungai Wang, we were like sardine between a sandwich.


Many funny things happened in this trip, include we were at the wrong direction when watching the fireworks during countdown to 2010!!! The view was blocked by some buildings but we thought we were at the correct position! However, we follow the crowd run to the other street and continue watching the fireworks. That means we were running during the first 2 minutes of year 2010! XD Thanks to my 4 friends who went to Singapore with me, you guys are great companions and I'm so happy in this trip. I'm also missing my 3 old friends although we just met yesterday because it's hard to meet each others nowadays.


Then, back to reality to continue working after a happy journey is really suffering. Time won't wait me and I should wake up.


Happy New Year everyone. I hope we can get what we want if we really striving for it.